(note: crap below. i reread it and it does'nt make any sense..)
mommy is chatting on the phone with my aunt now.. about what we got from today's trip to 葵坊. my legs are really tired out from the heels, it's only 2.5inches and my feet is dying ): i wonder how those artistes dance with 7inches heels (?!)
listening to Kong by 侧田 now, really old song but i like it. just read on tumblr that it's hari raya tmrw? wow really cant rmb haha. maybe a little disconnected with sg life again (yes, again).
now that i have the entire room to myself every night (since vannn is not here), i spent my nights reflecting about what i've been through this year, decisions made wrongly (and what could turn out if i made the right ones), what i could've improved on, what i could've achieved...etc. so much.
every night i hear the radio station here (fm 88.1) playing emotional songs and famous successful people sharing their experiences, i am like WOW, MAYBE I COULD BE LIKE THEM. and then the next morning i wake up fresh again, forgetting what i want to accomplish, waking up like some freak, messy hair, blurry eyes... well, i could've been much better than this.
then i take my usual brunch somewhere and go shopping. and i see lots of people on the streets, i tend to meet with them eye to eye, like they're looking at me and i stare back. i just realised that every time i look at different people, i think of what they work as, what they're doing (and about to do) and well, maybe i'll grow up to be like them. and i see really gorgeous people walking around on the streets, working in small shops selling rilakkumas and i kept thinking, WHY ON THE EARTH DO THEY NOT GO FOR MISS HONGKONG? OR BE SUPERMODELS? if i were them, i would've give it a try. no harm trying anw.
then i think. maybe different people will lead different lives, even if they might have the same dreams. i mean my dreams?..something that i've never been about to achieve. i need to be much better, MUCH BETTER THAN WHAT I AM NOW.
mommy always tells me that she made the right choice to bring me to sg (lols). i would be QUITE (if not VERY) different from now... much worse than all these i think..
and then today (once again) i think of the past. everything. every bit that i could've grab hold of. that every same bit that i let go of.
haha nice one.