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childhood dreams

well, i have lots of 'em. mostly inspired some drama serials. hongkong dramas are like specialised in filming different jobscope & sometimes, a child with no particular ambition will want to take that job up. i've seen lots of dramas of course and some of my childhood dreams are from those serials.

for example, i wanted to be a lawyer, a doctor, an actress, a singer, a magazine editor, a police, a nurse, a business woman, a company's ceo, a chef, a baker etc. these were my childhood dreams. as i grow up, i think deeply into each job and some of them are impossible.

for example.
1) lawyer needs to be particularly good in language, essays, which i totally can't because my language sucks.
2) a doctor needs to study lots and rmb lots of medical terms, which i totally can't be cos' my brain is just too small to store those things.
3) an actress needs to well, socialise and be pretty and perfect and all those, which i, again, totally can't becos im look just too normal and i can't really socialise.
4) a singer has to have a nice voice, but i can't again because my voice sucks and totally cannot reach those high keys.
5) a magazine editor needs powerful language AGAIN, yeah and the reason please refer to the no. 1.
6) a police has to be brave and all those physical strength, which need not be mentioned if you're me. im neither brave nor fit enough.
7) a nurse... hm i wonder if i've haemophobia. it sucks to faint just seeing blood if you're a nurse.
8) a business woman. well maybe i can do that. i don't really know what a business woman does. socialise?
9) a company's ceo. yeah tough job just sitting there in that rocky chair and signing documents.
10) a chef. i think there's a problem with my tastebuds.
11) a baker. well i love this job though. i mean chocolate cakes and cream and all those stuff. bdn i suck when it concerns food.

so you can see that most of my childhood dreams are all like crappy. sometimes i srsly dun understand why we need to have targets and aims since it's not like we'll be able to meet them anw. but still you have to have a target or what they say, a 目标.

all those childhood dreams above are all shit if you dun put your heart and soul in achieving them so the moral of the story is ___________. fill it in yourself.

-this post is although crappy but lesson 01 learnt.

have you ever felt like the world has never crashed like that before?

have you ever felt that nothing matters if you have something to look forward to?

have you ever felt like sleeping but could not do so?

troubled? who isn't? they say think out of the BOX.

and the grey clouds and tree leaves branches topple over you,

hiding you in the dark. it's the evening. when will this end?

and the buses and taxis and cars and lorries zoomed passed you,

yeah im lost.

sometimes i wish and pray that grades don't matter. but somehow they do, don't they? okay no im not trying to be a geek or sth minding over grades. it's june hols. this is the most depressing holiday i've ever had in my 14 years of life. one like this, can you believe it?
education is important, no doubt but students here are always too tensed up. srsly. i can't think of anywhere else that give their students quizzes and presentations JUST BEFORE holidays. i mean wts (sry lah damn stressed up).
enough about hols (more about the homework) we all are damn emo about it lar. who wouldn't?

okay my throat srsly hurts. wl lah just before i go back to hongkong. damn it. im going to gobble down as many strepsils as possible so that i will recover in time! yeah! that'll do! what if i get h1n1 arh touchwood touchwood.

-last day of sch tmr.

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great. im down with flu. damn.
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it's 11.40pm.
yeah i know it's not late but it's not really early either.
i hope i can slp right now but im still 'revising' geog. uber freaking lar. all these workload. damn.
i hate writing essays, especially those that i dun have any points at all ._. haish.

holiday homeworks are cliche.

this morning supposed to hand in reply slip for ALD so in the end we all dumped the slips with shiting and went to the foyer to suppost VIVIEN who was auditioning for youthday(:
omdg she's a born singer lar. and john (i hate calling him john because it's damn wierd) played extremely nice although all those who went were nursings and we kind of cheered for vivien and not him. anw his song was great. yeah ttly.
then we head back and lessons as usual. no history though.
and LA was shyt cos homework thrown all over the place. well it's horrible lar. somemore im like leaving NEXT WED which is freaking rush):

was playing with sasha (my bratz) just now again out of boredom. yeah i know im utterly childish too bad. nth's entertaining nowadays even though it's the holidays. bahhhh. i feel like changing my skin(: not literally.

it's a shame i still play with dolls :)

kay last week before the holidays and it remains the same everyday.

waking up.

washing up.

breakfast.

school.

home.

boring eh? and oh well 9 more days and i'll be free from all these.
before that i've to like be humiliated by 30 adults on 31st cos im like going to perform four pieces solo somemore. wts. can't imagine myself there playing a wrong note and made it even more obvious like stopping the entire song to find where am i on the score. this sucks. but srsly maybe you'll be like thinking what's the big deal lar. like you're not shameless anw -.- w/e nth to comment about that.
and for the fact tat im really homesick doesn't mean and was't meant to mean anything else. i just nid a break from all these kay. it's not like i dun like singapore and all that i love here srsly im simply homesick. so take it or leave it.

came back from swimming(:
out of the waters, under the sun, there's TWO ROASTED CHICKENS OMG.
hahahahah no lar it's me and my sis.
we're like black black 0.O haha. weird :8 still very darkkkkk. how. LOL.
very tired now lar. dun fell like doing homework superr slack(:

IKEA TRIP WITH RUIQI(:

it was so fun lar. i mean we played eat and shopped(; ahahahhaha. won't tell you why we go there. HEHEHEHEHEHE :P jealous? wahahaha. the smoked salmon is damn nice<3 and the splendid spagetti! we ate hotdog somemore(: very very nice. aiya i post the pictures until i sian liao. nothing to talk about. you can infer from the photos :D sorlehhh.

today's RT was slackkkkk.
no footdrill. no first aid. no PT.
amazing. slackkkkkkkkkk.
not bad lar we had corp reflection session by Sir Pia Leong(: he has great presenting skills though i almost fall aslp becos of the aircon. psps.
staff jade, staff glada and staff lydia got cca service award!
and others which i can't rmb :P srysry!
congrats!!!!!!
maybe one day my name will be up there.... hmmmm.
so then we had SMC session with maam xinying, maam qingyi, maam daphne & maam huaxin(:
very interesting and inspiring! though the part abt us being compeitive was ermmm. well.

quote of the day:
"Your life tomorrow is the result of your work today." (or sth like that :P)

omg are you the smelly one?

okay today was not bad. music was cool. i mean we laughed our heads off cos we're like gonggong sitting there. then i was supposed to play to the tune of QUIZZAs(: then stoning there cos i can't find my note :P
zhenglaoshi didn't come for chinese today and then time flew and it was PE.
okay lar although i wanted to play volleyball rather than captain's ball. though it turned out great. sweated alot(:
math was like quiz time. TWO QUIZZES :D ahhahaha i flunk them totally. nvm i shall TRY to TRY HARDER next time :P
im currently like choosing which soft toy to bring back to hongkong((:
hmmm. i shudd strt a contest or sth. maybe a voting system. (as if anyone will vote -.-) HAHAHAHAHA.
i was thinking of bringing stitch's doll *know what's that?* or maybe puggy *nici* or maybe... rilakkuma *i bet you know right*.
headache. HMMMMMM~

stitch's doll(:

rilakkuma(:

puggy and puggygy(:

WHAT SHUDD I DO?

PICTURE SPAM.