thanks for your comforting tag people.
im just emoing again (i bet ruiqi will say that) the stuupid internet is disfunctioning just before im going back to hk. nothing seems to be right nowadays. i, being a darn born sucker, is prone to failures. im used to it.
there's nothing in this world that can pull me out from the blackest black hole. there's only me in there. im not (supposed to be) pmsing.

-this isn't right. this isn't me.