I spent my past few minutes reading my previous two posts and got reminded of how I felt last year 2012. Those posts were done before I went back to Hong Kong in December and now that I'm back here in Spore, I can feel that overwhelming surge of sadness again. I've been back for a week now and everything felt like a dream. My trip to Hong Kong feels so surreal now, I'm missing it so badly. It's weird how I've been through all the 'emotional return to Spore' for the past 13 years but I've never been used to it. I wished my flight will be miraculously cancelled every time but it never worked. Everyone calls Spore the sunny island but to me, it'll be forever gloomy. I never felt at home here. Every time as I return from school, I feel like I'm just getting back to the house just to wait for another day to come. I feel so trapped every time I looked around me but there was no escape. I never felt like that when I was in Hong Kong. Even though I was unfamiliar of all the places there, I never feel strange there. That's a place I belong.

If my trip to Hong Kong were a dream, I'll be more than glad to never wake up from it.