Somewhere, somehow, I miscalculated. I can't count. There are so many things I can't predict, I can't expect and I don't know what to expect. I feel like I am standing in the middle of crossroads, waiting to be knocked down any moment. I feel like I am drowning but I can swim. I'm gasping for air but I am breathing. I'm happy but I'm crying. My life is a paradox. It was good until things change, people change and everything changed. What's left here is a mess.