I want to leave behind everything, things that define me, things that limit me and things that kill me slowly silently
I'm a coward I need to escape
I just want to be happy
Why is it so difficult
I want to fast forward in time and know how my life would be
I want to know if I failed or if I succeeded
I want to peek into the future
I want to know if all these would be worth it
They say it's for the better
They say it'll do me good
But I'm insecure and I want to know answers
I want definite answers
I want to wander aimlessly and know it's fine
But what do I deserve if I don't give
What am I left with if I don't give
What do I have to offer if I don't give
What's my worth if I don't give
How much then should I give