Can't believe I only got to realise this now, is it too late? Is it better than never knowing it and still thinking so full of myself? Only today did I realise I can be so insignificant, worthless, useless. I tried, yes I did, but it'll never be enough. I hate going back to all the 'I'll never be good enough' shit which I thought I have gotten over but apparently I have not. And the truth is, I'll never be enough. Never enough for anyone, not even myself. There's always someone better, some things that are not within our control and as much as we try to be better, no amount of effort is enough. Is there really no way to be good enough? I just want an acknowledgement, is it that difficult? Yes it is. Because I never believed there's a 'good enough'. There's only 'I can't do this anymore so I give up', which somehow got translated into 'it's good enough'. But I don't want. I don't want to give up, I'm not ready to give up and I have so much more. But what are these 'more things' that l thought I can offer? Something, but probably out of nothing.