Pen down

I guess it's increasingly difficult for me to pen down what I really feel. Like my thoughts and all. Because everything is so haphazard and most of the time I don't even know how to put them in words (should have bucked up on my English sigh). But maybe it has got nothing to do with the language because I can speak fluently (I think) and I can respond coherently. The thing is, when it comes to noting down what I really feel and think, it's always difficult and I'll end up 1) typing one whole chunk of words and deleting it 2) typing one whole chunk of incoherent words that don't really make sense 3) typing super short sentences that made me look like I'm trying (hard) to write a poem when I'm really not. Why am I so problematic?? I think I still type best when I'm rambling about random shitz that don't affect my life (like what I do on dayre so maybe it's better to read there) though. Ah.