Came across photos of the Chanel catwalk show during the Paris Fashion Week 2014 on tumblr (and then realising there might be a glitch today because I couldn't reblog any photos since this morning) and the stage with the entire supermarket setting amazes me. Bringing fashion into a scene any average human can relate to is really creative.
Life hasn't been as amazing so far though. You think it would be, once you attain that 5As you have always wanted but I can tell you that hasn't been my case (if it were to happen at all). It is really disappointing to know that you can climb that high and fall down deep the next moment. It's like taking a step forward and got pushed back by 3 steps. And what's worse is that your family gets disappointed as well. I honestly thought the results I got would call for a celebration and prove to my parents that I am capable of something for once. I guess I just have to keep trying and trying harder.
University applications haven't been easy as well. Having a sister who's an undergraduate really helps a lot in the sense that I can always reach out to her for advice. I really cannot imagine filling up all the forms and going through all the cumbersome procedures all by myself. Being the youngest in the family always gives me the advantage to get help whenever I need it. Sometimes I do take it for granted (which pisses my sister off) because I get so used to asking for help I don't even spend a moment to think of a way out. It is also unhealthy because then I grow to be someone who's constantly insecure and lacking the confidence. I always need that double-check function in my life to help me get by because nothing I do myself seem to be possible. I guess this new phase in life I'm about to enter will force me to change. University applications is one hurdle I need to get across first. On a side note, applications would have been much simpler without the essay writing because (I refuse to admit though) I am not very good with words and structuring my thoughts and writing will somehow always be something I dread. Getting my fingers crossed for a smooth-sailing application. Can't wait to get enrolled into a university.
