31/365

Just completed the 4km run (mass pe) with Rach and feeling good so far!

To be honest, I'm feeling quite proud of myself because without all the gym sessions (since the beginning of last year), I wouldn't be able to make it!! The 4km is really just a practice but if it was held 2 years ago, I think I would have dropped dead! Good job winchbean! One good thing about today's run: no muscle cramps! Okay maybe I owe it to my need to go to the toilet.. Shouldn't have drank so much water before the run but it turned out to be my motivation!
Hope this will last till forever, I really get myself toned and fit!

As of now, it's back to math and geography (oh the horror). Looking forward to the next run/gym session!

P.s Daddy's coming back today and we are having my favourite sushi for dinner so YAY

30/365

Experienced multiple turns of events today. Totally drained, not physically but mentally.

So it all started off with Janice and I heading to queenstown to get the bowling tees printed. Set off at 2:30+ pm in hope that we'll be able to return earlier than the previous time. We weren't that excited anymore because the process is tiring seriously. Who knows printing shirts is so difficult?

Reached not long after and located the shop.

Plot twist: The white jersey we've decided to get is outdated and does not have any stock.

Looked for other designs and settled with one that could suffice (I guess) and we were kind of relieved.

Plot twist: Turns out there weren't stock for the other one too and the only available one was in purple.

So we decided to look at what the other shops could offer. Reached another shop and decided perhaps the purple one would be good enough. Whatsapped Mr Ong the different colours of the shirt. That took almost 45 mins to convince him it is as good as the original one we wanted to get.

Plot twist: He needed to consult another teacher.

Waited for approx 10 min.

Plot twist: Couldn't get the teacher because he was having a meeting. And he suggested for us to head back.

Before leaving, we grabbed snacks (pancake and tea eggs yum) and decided to look for our fbts (to make the trip more worth it).

Plot twist: There weren't any M size for that particular design in all the shops that sells fbts.

The searching took almost another 30 min and in the end, I got a S size and she had to make do with L.

Plot twist: Janice is not returning to cca because she has urgent matters to attend to.

So I took the bus back to parkway for cca. Slept a bit on the bus (almost fell asleep on the shoulders of the person next to me oops) and read a few pages of my econs notes. Reached CSC finally and almost 3/4 of the session was over. Went to report to Mr Ong about our findings and got some other options for the shirt (such as Adidas and Converse - it would make my day if he had suggested earlier).

Plot twist: He didn't expect me to return all the way for cca. He thought I went home.

So I travelled all the way back for .... It's okay I will start on a travelogue. He gave me the option of staying for the rest of the session or leave (since he said I looked really tired which I was for the entire day). So now I'm on the bus omw home.

My heart is so frail now I think I'll die of heart attack if I take another turn of events. I'll walk straight till the end (haha ok not funny).

28/365

I hate Mondays. I presume school made us wear the tie to provide us the convenience of accidentally strangling ourselves.

The math test today made today worse. Couldn't do the SLE question, which was supposed to be a give-away, and also the DE question because stupid me forgot there's something called improper fractions when I was applying partial fractions. So I couldn't integrate (which would have been a piece of cake if I had split the fraction) and subsequently couldn't get the answer. There goes my 5 marks.

How dumb can I get seriously.

And at that point in time, I was so upset I hoped everyone would shut up about the math test (which eventually everyone did because who wants to talk about math?).

Lunch afterwards didn't make things any better. Had a quick lunch and bought green tea to calm myself a bit and stoned for the rest of the hour (thank god for smartphones). Another 1.5 hours of my life was then wasted on the GP lecture. I appreciated the effort in inviting an artist to give a talk regarding art but really, attempting the arts question is not on my to-do-list for As and I'm not artistically-inclined to do so anyway. And not to mention the slides were basically filled with art pieces which I cannot relate to. Tbh, I thought the lecture was not quite productive and informative (sorry). Conclusion: I spent my time talking to Janice. I was being hopeful and thought I might be a better artist so I drew this:

27/365

Bought the iPod touch 5th generation yesterday !! *life-changing moment*

Had to get the blue one because there weren't red or yellow (32gb) in store and the red (which I really loved) was only available online.According to the salesperson, it was because the red one was *special* so it could only be purchased online (what kind of logic is that). So since I hate getting things online -it just doesn't feel so safe- I had to choose between the blue and black. I didn't think of getting the black one at all because I already own a black iPod touch 4th gen (really wanted to get the white one last year but there weren't any stock so I had to make do with black) so I just bought the blue one. Growing to like the colour but I still bought a red cover anyway HAHA. The earpods are also amazing so far and the iPod is kind of better than my old one (which I kindly gave to my sis). It's much slimmer, lighter, clearer, faster, bigger, longer (list goes on). Everything's not too bad so far (other than the fact that both iPods will have same songs, apps etc since it's all under the same account).

Say hi to the new iPod !!
P.S. I'll still love my old iPod (which I painstakingly worked to pay for it myself).

24/365

ThrowbackThursday.

I miss those times. Those times when we have nothing to worry about. The life of a seventeen year old sucks. My life can be summarized in 3 words: school, study, sleep. The cycle repeats. Of course I did take ungainful breaks just to keep myself alive. And the stress is building up, not because of the mountains of homework, but the guilt that I feel whenever another day pass by. I did nothing productive since the first day of school. Hello 2012 self, where are you?? Tests are coming up too (the so-called milestone checks to make us feel better) but I am barely prepared and so that makes me panic.

Just a few days ago, my parents sent me photos of my sis and I when we were young. Oh the memories. Innocent and carefree souls. We've changed so much it really scares me. Wasn't referring to the appearance though. I've changed so much, I think and doubt so much now. I miss the old me. I miss those times when nobody judges, nobody lies and nobody hates. Those times when all we cared about was the games to be played during recess (ice and water / crocodile) and the dance showing on the next hi-5 episode. The only thing we want to master is the hi-5 dance (my all-time fave L-O-V-E). We want fun and we have fun. Then time forces us to grow up and shit got real. Every single day becomes complicated. People criticise and compete, people became materialistic and turned pragmatic.
Growing up was never easy. Things change and people change.
I guess the young innocent us were meant to stay in the past.

Only 24/365 currently, there's still a long way to go.
341 more days I can do this let's go

22/365

Silently rejoiced when school ended today.

School started off badly because I took the circle line just to be early for the flag raising in PAC and it turned out to be held in class (they sent an email to notify us but I hate checking emails so sorry I didn't know). Taking circle line is forever tiring because I'll be standing/walking throughout the 1 hour long journey. First hour was free period and credits to myself for being upset over the 'walk to school & should have taken 158 instead' incident because then I was able to fully concentrate and did some math. The rest of the day was just like any other day. Dedicated my physics lesson to figure out what my physics teacher looks like and bingo he looks like a knowledgeable squirrel which resides in a tree hole. That kept me entertained for the rest of the lesson and yep, I've decided to be a good physics student because it's not right to disappoint squirrels.

Short lunch with Rachel and Shi hui again but it didn't last for 4+ hours today because I need time for gym. First trip to the gym in 2013 !! Took me quite some time to get my lazy self up and out of the house and finally reached the entrance of the gym where I waited for around 10 minutes for the guards to find the pass so that I can enter the doors. 

Things I did in the gym:

1. No warm-ups sorry I'm too lazy
2. 15 min cycling
3. 6 min cooling down
4. 100 sit ups (although I don't really feel the strain, maybe I did it wrongly)
5. Lifted some weights 
6. 3.62 km on the treadmill (almost died)
7. Leg extension exercise (20 sets of 3)
8. 10 min cooling down
9. Left the gym

After the first 20 min, I had the gym all to myself because the other two users left. Great. I love being alone in the gym because no one will judge me while I experiment with the machines and all the equipment will be unoccupied. Oh and here are 3 photos I snapped while cooling down haha 

21/365

Exactly what I thought of this morning.

Today was an overall great day I guess (considering it's a Monday). The morning started off with false hope when I thought the heavy rain wouldn't stop until I reach school but it did when I was about to leave the house so there was no cabbing (which also meant I might be late for school). Took the train, checked the time almost every other minute and checked if 158/158a was arriving Aljunied. Just when I was deciding between taking the circle line or 158a (since I missed the 158 already), I decided to have faith in 158a (which was arriving in 3 min), headed on to alight at Aljunied and the trusty 158a didn't let me down (thank god). So not only was I not late for school, I reached at 7:44am which was pretty early for me. Shall skip the part about me spending the 10+ min in the audi toilet.

Flag raising was a waste of time as usual and the only entertaining part would be waiting for Rachel to appear and hurry to the class but she didn't appear today. Thought she was late (which is quite rare since she only did once last year) so I concluded she might be sick and begin planning how I'm going to spend the rest of the day myself. Surprisingly she came from the back this morning. Yep, she ran to school from the front gate. Which also meant I didn't have to spend the rest of the day myself hooray.

School started off with econs and we were having an essay test so that feeling really sucked. I'm should be thankful I dedicated one day to revise the essays I wrote during the holidays (revision does come in handy some time) because well, I had something to write. Stoning during a test is the WORST feeling ever. Anyway, all was good I hope I answered it correctly (although 99% of the time when I thought I had it all, I had none) but yep, I was a happy girl after the test.

Had Thai food (perhaps for the rest of my life) for recess and did my job as a Math Rep for the last time (I'll explain why later). Collected Vectors III notes and distributed it to class. Headed for geog lecture and spent the time talking to Rachel and Ruiqi. Can't blame me, everything from geog lectures mainly come from the notes so -
I had the hardest time of my life during GP tutorial then. I can't paraphrase words (why can't we have it in Chinese) and even with Merriam-Webster, I paraphrased 'passive' wrongly... Why is life so difficult??? The rest of GP was spent discussing about parks in SG. I thought of Bird Park but obviously that wasn't the kind of parks we were discussing hm.

It was math lecture and life was boring but I paid attention to the lecture anyway.. And not to forget the people behind who were noisy (peer tutoring, singing christmas songs, talking really loud even though they were sitting next to each other) which makes my life difficult again since it was almost impossible to concentrate (that was when I could finally apply something I learn from bowling - shut out).

Then it was lunch and I finally bought milk (after reading the 10 benefits of drinking milk daily online) and food from Korean stall. Bought my 3 pen refills too. PC period was a waste of my life, I'm sure we all had a great time classifying things under importance and urgent and doing goal setting. The only quite useful thing was the re-election of class comm. *drum rolls* I was promoted to secretary (not like there's really things to do under that). But to be honest, although I hate collecting money from people and distributing notes, I kind of miss being a math rep....

The last thing for the day was the individual phototaking for the stupid photolog. I was super awkward in front of the camera and my facial expression was tense (according to the photographer). Laughed a lot because it was so funny I went cockeye a few times while staring into the camera..

That's the end of my typical school day (you must be glad). Tomorrow is a short day and I'm deciding if I should head to the gym (oh lazy me). Oh and there's physics tomorrow which I'm not looking forward to, I'm going to disappoint the nice teacher by not completing the tutorial questions.

20/365

According to the weather forecast, the rain and gloomy weather will continue for at least the next five days. I'm currently enjoying the weather because it is so much cooler although it makes me want to sleep. Today I'm spending my entire day indoors (i.e. at home) because I have no life other plans. Anyway, I've decided to come up with a list of things that makes me happy and sad on this particular Sunday so that I'll have things to do other than revising for tomorrow's test (oh no).

Things that makes me happy

1. Woke up at 11:28 am with the help of my alarm clock
2. Woke up with no headache (and no headache for the rest of the rainy day)
3. Mom woke up late so I have more 'morning time' to revise
4. Did a bit of revision
5. Bought my favourite GongCha camelia tea with 80% sugar
6. Still drinking my gongcha
7. Checking my instagram and there are updates almost everytime
8. Having some alone time at home (while my mom & sis are doing grocery shopping)
9. Serenity
10. Revising some work which makes me feel less guilty
11. Having cold udon and fried dumplings (my fave) for dinner tonight
12. The rain stopped
13. Perhaps getting an iPod Touch 5 for my birthday
14. Feb is coming = holidays 

Things that makes me sad

1. Woke up later than what I planned (10 am)
2. Missing my bed very much
3. Having to revise
4. The test tomorrow & having it during the first period
5. The sad weather
6. Having to come home right away after lunch
7. GongCha's small cup-size as compared to the huge one in Hong Kong
8. Hong Kong
9. Can't concentrate on work & have to check instagram to wake myself up
10. Having nothing to update my instagram because my life is boring
11. Guilty of not revising during the holidays
12. It's lousy Monday tomorrow & Tuesday & Wednesday & Thursday
13. You

Great. I was really hoping for more happy things than sad ones and I've got them right there now phew. That kind of means I should be feeling happy right now and not be upset with the lousy weather. And I should be going back to my revision now (which will make me upset again oh no) why is life so difficult. 

P.s. that picture up there does not belong to me, I ripped it off Tumblr I'm so sorry. But it's kind of similar to what I want in my New Year Resolution list (which I did not start on because I'm a lazybug) so yep.

不只愛情 - 區文詩

聽說某個歲數還是孤獨便如罪
身邊一對對 太令人顧慮
到了這個歲數明白 再不怕面對
不必等愛侶
我淡定行下去

忙著到處拼搏不失樂趣
密友知己可以閨中暢聚
情人節會有母親溫馨笑容共對
厭了愛誰 又會怕失去

一生忠於愛情
一天不可冷清
當日迷信我的任性
人成熟了才會擦亮眼睛
從此看清
單身不需愛情
世界終於覺醒
今日誰愛我都心領
人成熟了才會 發現我的個性

曾亦冀盼過著婚紗合照
下半生交給某一位照料
然而領教過太多虛假愛情玩笑
欠缺了誰亦會有心跳

一生忠於愛情
一天不可冷清
當日迷信我的任性
人成熟了才會擦亮眼睛
從此看清
單身不需愛情
世界終於覺醒
今日誰愛我都心領
人成熟了才會發現我的個性

一生不只愛情
身邊許多美景
天地行有我的路徑
人成熟了才會擦亮眼睛
從此看清
單身不需說明
用自愛的心境
修煉成智慧的悟性
閒言別去回應
這是我的個性

19/365

Almost wanted to write 17/365 for the title but there's no way to turn back time so


Anyway, the day started off rainy and sad but I'm glad (so was my mom) I woke up after 1000 alarms from my phone at 11:08 am. My mom was surprised to see me awake before her (she woke up at 12:26 pm) and praised me because she wouldn't have to waste her life away trying to wake me up. It's really not that difficult to wake me up because I'll have to do that eventually.

Currently, I'm upset with myself and getting slightly (trying to calm myself a bit) nervous because I attempted the DE assignment and I'm stuck at the first question already. I haven't gotten back the momentum of doing math (blame all I want) and I'm not good with integration so there's a high possibility I'll do badly for the test (DE and SLE) on 28th. It's really ironic when my class thinks my math is good. They didn't really get to realise that I can't do math in school, reasons are 1: I need lots of time to really solve one 2: I need help from my sister 3: I'm pressurized because I'm supposed to be able to solve them but I know I can't. So afterall, the truth is: I'm not good with math at all. (hello there if you're reading, I hope you're from my class) Anyway, I have decided I should revise (!!!) and now I'm worried because I have not started on any revision since December.
(*just when I finished this paragraph I managed to solve the first part of the question so..... Keep going man!)

The rain is probably not going to stop until tonight (it has been raining since morning) Stop being so upset sky! In attempt to cheer everyone up, I've changed my phone cover and dustcap. Neon pink no longer makes me happy I wonder why. I'm also pleased to say I can't feel a headache coming (I always do on rainy days) and hopefully I can feel well for the rest of the day. Singapore's weather is really ... a killer. First the sun, then the afternoon showers and a crazy downpour that never stops. I'm starting to miss the weather in Hong Kong already. Not a good person with the heat, but unfortunately the only thing that is cooling here in sg is the tapwater.

18/365

Finally a brand new layout and url for my blog which I have been neglecting since last year. Everything looks much simpler now and I'm liking this change!

It's already Jan 18, which means half a month has passed by, and I've already been back in school for two weeks! Cliche as it may sound but time really flies... And soon it'll be the As and also (hopefully) the end of it! Really can't wait because I've already started planning my to-do-list ...

Anyway, so the first week of school was spent at the SH orientation and my class (6C12) had some fun while fooling around. Sadly, almost half of my class was involved in facilitating the orientation so the rest of us just simply participated in the activities.

[First day] We were not quite interested in the mass dance so we spent that 1.5 hours idling at the back of the hall (but it was good time spent I have to say). We did play hard during the station games in Katong Park though, especially for the water spongeball game against a year 5 class which we eventually lose 1-12 haha. There was a sudden heavy downpour when we were about to start the third station game and everyone had to rush to the underpass for shelter, in which 6C12 sat along the underpass and talked for quite a bit. I love that part in the underpass because it was so funny. We all agreed that the various groups of people cheering near the ends of the underpass were super irritating (there was echoes everywhere and not to forget the noisy downpour) and we made up a 'shut up' cheer to retaliate! Lin Yao was entertaining us too (I'm really glad she's our leader for orientation!).. Soon after the rain stopped, we made our way out and returned to playing the station games which ended abruptly because time was up and everyone had to return to school.

[Second day] The day started of with mass dance (again) and so we sat at the back of the hall until it ended.. Then it was the hall games (Siege of the Empire), which my class girls actively participated in and even brought home some scratches. I have to agree that everyone was pretty aggressive during the game and some of the guys were playing super rough so I chose to play with girls (although some of them were as violent..). After SOTE, it was lunch time (we had approximately 2 hours) and after our 30 min lunch, we headed to the library and borrowed a laptop to watch movie (and ended up watching YouTube videos instead - fail compilations and cute baby videos). At 3+ pm, it was the legendary DOTA (Defense of the Attire) which my class did not participate in. I guess everyone gone wild in the mudpool and there were many pauses in the game.. We had lots of fun though,  sitting aside and laughing whenever the facilitators address the boundaries as 'Guardians of Wall'.

[Third day] Orientation begin at 2 pm that day and we gathered at the ISH for phototaking session.. Then it was mass dance (if I didn't remember it wrongly) and I can't remember what was next.. Then it  was the buffet dinner in the canteen which the class girls had been very excited about. We were the first in queue (we opened up all the trays actually) and also the  first to eat! We had a great time laughing and eating (oops) while the cheering competition went on but we joined in soon after we finished our meals (we were really hungry). It was quite fun doing the cheers tbh.. Then we proceeded to the hall for the campfire opening ceremony and moved to the field area for the campfire event. There was heavy rain before that so everything was wet but it was alright when we settled down. Tbh some parts of the campfire was kind of boring but the emcees did a great job in keeping the spirits high! That night was great and it marked the end of orientation...

So now I'm back in school, leading a normal school life, with lessons packed like crazy on some days and some days filled with ridiculously free periods... Homework and tests are coming up so I really have to buck up and stay focused !! Heading back to work now after this post (haven't been blogging so there are lots of stuff I want to blog about)...
Praying that the upcoming tests will be manageable and for the year to be smooth sailing!!!!
Keeping my fingers crossed xx

I spent my past few minutes reading my previous two posts and got reminded of how I felt last year 2012. Those posts were done before I went back to Hong Kong in December and now that I'm back here in Spore, I can feel that overwhelming surge of sadness again. I've been back for a week now and everything felt like a dream. My trip to Hong Kong feels so surreal now, I'm missing it so badly. It's weird how I've been through all the 'emotional return to Spore' for the past 13 years but I've never been used to it. I wished my flight will be miraculously cancelled every time but it never worked. Everyone calls Spore the sunny island but to me, it'll be forever gloomy. I never felt at home here. Every time as I return from school, I feel like I'm just getting back to the house just to wait for another day to come. I feel so trapped every time I looked around me but there was no escape. I never felt like that when I was in Hong Kong. Even though I was unfamiliar of all the places there, I never feel strange there. That's a place I belong.

If my trip to Hong Kong were a dream, I'll be more than glad to never wake up from it.