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I don't feel good. My body is aching, there's no way I can sit comfortably in my usual chair at the desk, I can't fall asleep without rounds of tossing and turning and I feel like my back is so weak right now. I have no idea why that is so, I'm afraid of the ache, that I can't get comfortable no matter what and it has been weeks. Perhaps I need to exercise. My legs are constantly feeling numb and I have heavy shoulders dragging me down, I just don't know if I can even physically support myself anymore. I just need my back to be strong enough again, I really want to feel good again and now I'm just on the verge of tears every time I sit down for too long because my back freaking hurts. Oh god.