當呼吸是照舊無常
前行仍舊遍地雪霜
當四季尚在場時
能懷抱你是最大理想
現實是日夜只懂念舊
沒有辦法放手
只妄想跟你去避世
風再急可捉緊你手
從頭開始
多多一次靠你我來重演
多多一集上集就如排練
就讓劇情緩緩改變
然而現況 是各自各一邊
但願有天會真的跟你結識暗戀熱戀多一遍
期盼來到這天
遺憾橋段可變
時間場地改變
唯獨人物不變
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The above can briefly describe my feelings towards graduation. The idea is, if given a second chance, how would I choose to live it? Would I still do what I did and be what I've become? What would I change and how different would I end up? That's the funny thing about life, it's not a game but it fooled you all around, it gives no second chances and there's no replay. What has been done is done, no turning back and no room for regrets. The past 6 years, I've gain a lot and lose a lot. I've grown to be someone I never thought I would be. I grew more mature, independent, brave and real. I can't say it's an achievement but it surely is something I can be proud of. These years haven't been kind, I had my ups and downs and I pulled through. What's the worst that can happen? I think more, sometimes over-thinking, but I'm glad I feel more. I became quieter, I enjoy peace and I appreciate alone time. They make me reflect, something I don't bother when I was younger. I got to know great people, school has either brought us together or apart, but I'm still thankful anyway. I thank more now, I feel blessed more. I complained more now because I've learnt to acknowledge what I feel. I voice out more now because I know sometimes you need to be heard to exist. I observe more now and even though that made me spot more flaws in people, I learnt from them. Throughout the years, I've changed. I cry more now, I laugh less and I talk less. I realised it's all about the inner being. You don't have to be what everyone wants you to be. Nobody expected me to be quiet, they thought I was the usual loud happy 'ah lian' but I showed them I am not. What is more important is that I embrace it, I like to surprise people with that. I've had worse phases, people hurting me and letting me down, people leaving and all but I'm fine with it now (I refuse to admit I'm used to it although to some extent I think I am) and I understand what they meant when they say 'what's meant to be will always find its way'. That's how life is. I think everything is planned, fate sealed and change is possible but the ultimate ending is set. And it'll all be good. Everyone deserves a happy ending. At last, it was not until graduation that I realise I wouldn't want to change any thing that has happened in the past 6 years. They made me who I am today, they made me grow and I'm comfortable with who I am now (ignore those periodical self-doubt phase). I thank everyone who has helped me or made me change and my past 6 years had been a great thrilling journey. I think I don't hate schooling that much afterall.
Now, what's next?
