okay. i'm SO DEAD. this is so stupid. there's this SJAB camp and i think there's this NIGHT WALK thingie, cos' we're supposed to bring torch lights with SPARE BATTERIES. this is so scary. if there's suddenly a ghost or sth in white popping out in front of me, my first instinct would be crying, thn screaming, thn wet my pants or skirt. THIS WOULD BE SO HUMILIATING. i would kill myself if this happens. anw. i hate this camp. although i've not go in yet, but i know cos' i dun really like the pple there, except for ruiqiqi and jiahwan and huixian and alissa, en ci, vivien. but still. this camp is so gonna suck. I HATE IT. why did i get into SJAB in the first place. i hate myself suddenly. idiot. morons. spastic. grr. I THINK IM GETTING A BIT TOO violent. okay now. I DECLARE. I HATE him AS MUCH AS the camp. but i think the camp would be better bah. OH SHIT. i forgot that we are not supposed to bring sleeping bag. THN WHERE THE HECK are we gonna sleep? we are camping in sch you know. i dunwan to sleep on the floors or sth like that. yuck. i just hate being in SJ houses. cannot be with ruiqi. i will be so down lor. cos nobody close to me. and and and. i just hate one of them lor. she always 脸臭臭, see her alr dun feel like eating lor. dunnoe why lar.
anw, i just realised that i've been very very bad in this post. hmmmm. but if i dun put things in this manner, i dunnoe how to express myself alr. haiz. i think im under TOO MUCH stress.T^T