I think I'm losing sight of my goal. The past few days were truly wasted. I did nothing. I tried to study but nothing is going in. I'm not doing tutorials and not reading lecture notes. And that scares me. I don't know if I'm getting sick of it or am I just less self-motivated now. I just can't seem to get myself to do them. The feeling of not accomplishing anything makes me guilty and nervous. That feeling sucks. I'm going nowhere.
And the thought of never being good enough makes it harder. I'm not even close to being good enough and I won't ever be. No matter how hard I try, I'll still miss the peak by a bit. A bit. Every single time. When can I ever be good enough?
Maybe I'm just tired. Maybe the late nights over the past week is taking a toll on me. Whatever it is, I'm running out of time. I need to pull myself together because there's no second chance. As for now, I'll anticipate the end of Thursday so I can let everything fall back into place. Please.
