Inter view

Receiving the call halfway through my second day at work to inform me of an upcoming interview was such a surprise. At the moment, I was happy because: I am working and one of the (two) universities I've applied to has decided that I might be eligible. I mean, ignoring the fact that they interview all applicants. And then the next moment I began to worry. The English Language Test and the interview (mind you it's a group interview) all together at a go can be really stressful especially for someone like me, constantly stuck in the labyrinth of writing and conversing. I can write, trust me. I just can't put together the right words and sentences to make the entire thing flow. I can do discussions and communicate well. I just can't do it in front of a group of strangers who might be already judging me for the contents of my speech (or the lack of). Even though this course isn't my priority, I really hope to ace it and yes I checked online forums to be more mentally prepared but all it did was to frighten me. It was helpful in the sense that I understood how everything would supposedly be conducted tomorrow though. For now I am simply reading their brochures (yes I applied without reading brochures whatever) and randomly surfing the internet to get some inspirations, reading TC and trying to get the hang of writing. No you can't master writing in a day. Not even a year or two because look at where I am now. To be honest, I am not quite afraid of the comprehension and essay test tomorrow (even though the last time I had written was a few good months ago) because nobody will know what I have answered or written no matter how crappy they end up to be. I am terrified by the group interview because even though I know how to carry myself prim and proper, I have trouble voicing out and formulating my sentences when I feel inferior and inadequate. I am a good listener when it comes to big groups and I have always been fine with it. Interviewing would be stepping out of my comfort zone I guess. I think I can do better if it was a one-to-one thing or one-to-a-few but not a group. But then again, when life gives you lemons, you take them.