Maybe I'm losing myself in the process
I lost my temper again and I was so rude to my dad. He was trying to teach me but I snapped at him for being naggy. I think it's the headache though. That's no excuse but really. I guess I'm just really mentally tired. Like my brain's weighing on my shoulders and I can't even sit up straight now. They said I look too happy and too carefree when this period is supposed to be the toughest of them all. And it is. I just don't show it. Every time mommy questioned why I have so much time on hand to go around the house talking nonsense, my heart died a little. She doesn't know. They don't either. I have got no time left but I just want my time to be worth it. I know I could do much more but I'm sick of it and all I want is to be happy now. Well, at least they said I look like it. I have so much left untouched and I don't even know where to begin. Perhaps by the time I start, it's going to end. I'm just really tired. And it's math tomorrow, the subject I've labelled favourite since primary school. I like doing math and the thrill you get when you tick off one question because you've completed it? Perfect. I have been doing math religiously these few weeks, something I have not been doing since forever (even though it's a subject I enjoy), so I really hope it'll pay off. I mean, doing 2 papers every day would have killed me in year 5 and I really can't believe I even bothered doing that this period because I didn't even bother revising for math for prelims. Ok yeap so please just let this work. This period needs to end soon. I know worse things are coming up and I'm not quite sure if I'm prepared for it but I'm also looking forward to the end already. 18 more days.
