Feeling slightly uneasy now, other than muscles aching all over from all the shopping with Clara yesterday and today with mommy. It's tiring but I like it. For a moment I didn't know what I would choose: studying or shopping. Both are tiring, one mentally another physically. I guess that periodic homesickness is back to haunt me. Can't wait to leave suddenly, like I don't want to be approached or anything. I want to be disconnected with the world and live in my little box. Maybe it's because of the things happening these few days. I don't know. I thought it wouldn't bug me but... afterall, anything you cannot control makes you nervous because you wish you could. I wish I could help but it's between them. I can't because I'm helpless too. Maybe going back would work? Maybe if time stopped or maybe if I bothered to care more maybe it'll be different now?
I don't know.
What if it happens and I don't ever trust love anymore?
